…wake at 5:00 AM, heart racing hands shaking. Morning ablutions, then coffee (1 cup), pharmaceutical meds and pot…
…shakes subside, muscles sore from cheap bed and shakes. Surprising how exhausted anxiety can make one…
…check for online work, work it if it’s there (pretty slim pickin’s). Tenses me up wears me out, but I’m trying to live on a disability pension that equals a week and a half’s pay at a little more than minimum wage…
…no work, try and keep the place clean. Hard to do, old house, poorly maintained, work all done by the owner, couldn’t make a 90° cut with a mitre box…
…lunch, usually soup or sandwich. Can’t taste anyway, another side effect of years of Prozac…
…if I need groceries or meds, I get them in the afternoon. Don’t go anywhere else…
…dinner…try to eat carbs, veg and protein for dinner, but can’t be bothered some nights (a lot of my meals are meal replacements for diabetics)…
…nothing to do at night but watch the same old shows on tv…sometimes get to sleep at a reasonable time, but not often…
All of the above is punctuated by anxiety attacks, physical pain and, occasionally, there’s a day when I can’t do anything but sleep…
Life in Canada 